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Tuesday, September 2, 2008

ok i didn't think i was going to write another blog so quickly, especially since it's so late at night, but anyhow...

this is really random, but i just felt like sharing. feel free to ignore if you don't want to hear stories. two somewhat sad stories.

1) remember that discussion that one day at TC about dreams? last night i dreamed. there's this really huge building that's called the cathedral of learning that's like the trademark of the school. Visual:anyhow, last night, i dreamt (spell check says i'm wrong...but dreamed and dreamt are both acceptable...whatever) that i was on the like 36th floor (home of the Honors College), then i went up one more floor and there was this guy with explosives (aka terrorist bombing). so i ran out the building. i don't remember much more from that after i awoke, but in any event, i think i'm going to avoid the cathedral for the rest of this week. not that i think anything will happen, but it's just the kinda thing that creeps me out.

2) the catalyst for why i'm writing. i'm really kinda sad right now, and that's because our chem teacher (the one who wrote the book specifically for the class and is the same book that's used at berkeley), dr. siska, sent us an email. he has cancer and is going through chemotherapy and radation treatment, and he sent us an email saying that tomorrow (actually, today for me now) is going to be his last lecture :(. he's too sick to continue teaching, and that's really sad, cause he's such a nice guy and he seems like a great teacher.

3) i wasn't originally thinking about putting this up, but...i've made a couple of good friends here, and one of them, julie, is a really smart person, graduated 3rd out of like 500 in her high school, full tuition scholarship here, etc. and she liked this guy for all four years of high school, and went out with him for senior year. and during 'senior week', which is like our retreat/grad night dinner/awards night/ditch day combined, his friends got him into trying stuff. like drugs. and now he's a pot dealer. they broke up. it's really sad.
and not that i'm thinking that you guys will go into drugs (i really hope not!), but it's INSANE how transformations can occur so quickly. from what she said, he was a really nice guy, and he was clean (drug-wise) and smart. so please, i beg and i plead that you guys don't change. not like that, at least. like, try and experience, but don't change for the worse. cause it would break my heart, and i'm sure it would break others' hearts too :(

so yeah, sorry that i had to share not-so-happy news (like polar opposite from my last post...), but i'm glad that i got to write and get that off of my mind.

as usual, i'm thinking about you guys and how awesome you are.

peace (-<) and love <3
~bernard

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